Trom (The Resolution of Mind)

Today marks my one year anniversary of TROM-ing.

Comparing last year at this date to where I am now is nearly impossible.  So much charge has blown, I can barely conceive of the compulsive games condition, bordering on insanity, I was in on October 20, 2018 when I was at an IAS event and one of their registrars crossed the line in the tactics she was using trying to get a donation from me.

I had been rolling around in my mind for several weeks the thought of looking for an alternative to Scientology.  But my KSW indoctrination, my hopes that something would get better with my situation with the Church, and the faces of my Scientologist friends I would risk losing kept my desire to look elsewhere at bay.

But enough was enough.  I decided that my spiritual freedom was not something I purchased from an organization.  It was not some game of Mother-May-I with the Church.  So I decided to take responsibility for my own condition and look elsewhere.

It only took a minute or two of searching Google to find TROM.  I started reading the original book and though it was difficult for me to grasp at first, somehow I knew there was something to it, and I sweated it out.

Over the next two weeks I read all the other basic books on TROM-- Insanity Point, Philosophy of TROM, Expanding on Level Five, Bond Breaking and The Game Strategy.  After that, I was still scratching my head in semi-non-comprehension, but I understood the materials well enough to at least do levels 1-3, so I started the therapy.

Thankfully, the level one test was no difficulty.  Years ago I had my CCHs run on me anyway. But that was before Golden Age of Tech (chuckle) so I wasn't too sure before I tried.

It took a little over two weeks of running myself about two hours per day to get through level two.

Level Three seemed to last almost forever-- two or three months on the first try. STILL doing about two hours per day.

Level Four was at least a month.

Then for several more months I would get up to level five, crash, go back to levels two, three, and four, get back up to level five and crash again.

I figured out a way to timebreak better than I was doing before based on some data in the Insanity Point lectures that is reprinted in the TROM therapy manual, which I have also posted on this forum in the level three section here, then it was smooth sailing after that.

As of today I have nulled "to know" several times and have nulled "to sex" and "to help".  I can now see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Life is so much less serious now.  Unlike my past self, I can actually sit alone in a room with no distractions without thinking myself into a corner.  I can see the foolishness of my ways from before, and I can spot the foolishness of the ways of others around me now.

I'll never be able to thank Dennis personally.  The best I can do is continue my project to proofread the transcripts and the books, provide decent glossaries that won't bury others into more misunderstood words, and help by clarifying what TROM is and what Scientology is so the laymen has a fighting chance of understanding this subject. All so that others may have a chance to enjoy the state of mind I now enjoy.

THANK YOU DENNIS!

I don't own an e-meter and it's been 25 years since I have used one.  So I basically had to go by the fact that level three was impossible for me to continue running.  Everything I tried to timebreak just vanished as soon as I brought it up.  I am now very stably on level five, so I am not worried.

I think my main problem with level three was that I did not sufficiently timebreak emotions and postulates.  Once I figured out a set of commands for timebreaking an incident that included timebreaking my emotions, others' emotions, sensations, my postulates and others, I got a cleaner finish from timebreaking each incident.  So when I re-did level three for a few months I was much more certain of my completion.

Still, getting an e-meter and relearning how to use it is not a bad idea.  Sometimes I feel like this is taking too long, but now I don't feel so much if it can take another 7 years for level two.  Wow.