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« on: March 09, 2019, 03:30:46 am »
There were three things that I got from, and remained with me from my time in SCN, the total understanding of my language, the ability to erase by inspection and the inability to use postulates.
My solution was to leave alone the postulates and start using systems to do and get things, with the occasional help of some miraculous postulate, I learned logic and life began to be easier, I can not complain.
A few years ago TROM fell from the sky. The first thing I noticed is that it answered why I could not use the postulates without going into a free fall. I read it several times and started to use it. This is the story.
Level one, it was not necessary. So I'm not even going to mention it.
Level two; I started auditing, sometimes several days in a row and then I left for some time. The exercises seemed very interesting and gave me a new aspect of my life. When it became boring I moved to the next level.
Level 3. I have to tell you that one of the things that make me aware that I was in the limit of the usage of postulates, and had to quit or pay for it, was a strange sensation of danger, like the feeling that something bad was going to happen. Just the sensation without images, without words, only a sensation. The only solution was to forget about postulates and keep doing the things by the old known system of moving the things in the universe, kind of recognize I would never be able to use that power.
But I keep my sessions in Level 3. Once, while traveling on the road driving my car, in one of the most dangerous curve of the road suddenly the feeling was right there, strong and clear, the car was going to the limit speed for that curve and there was the sensation that something was going to happen, and most likely I could not get out of the curve unharmed.
But I was not the same than before, now I knew that I could revalue ancient information by bringing it to the present time and comparing it with the reality of now. But I was in the middle of a dangerous curve.
The tires screeched in a groan, I did not enter into session, I did not make anything, I just did it, I just brake the time, there I was comparing past and present right now. It was a revelation, that sensation that had been defeating me all my life, all the lives were there, like a big snake looking at the dinner, but there I was time braking it and the sensation starts to vanish every meter that went along the way.
I accelerated to get out of the last section of the curve, without a scratch, without a mishap, not even a shake in the direction. the dam sensation was no longer there.
Everything was just fine, even boring, I knew I had won my life, I was so happy but just I could not help but laugh quietly, I did not feel like explaining to my travel companions, what had happened to me. They would take me to the madhouse.
I spend a lot of time to return to the session. Not that I did not try, simply that I spent time without locating anything else to fight with (sort of speaking), what did happen very often was that when I perceived any negative sensation, I simply brought it to the present time and the sensation ceased to exist.
It was not a matter of "putting me in session" and breaking time and feeling, it was a matter of only paying attention tenuously, just looking at it, there was the sensation, of bad feeling or whatever appears, contrasting with the walls, the doors, the windows, the trees, and the people in the present time, for a moment to vanish forever.
After a long time, I realized that I had completed the level.